There comes a point in my life where everything seems to be constant. Every routine I have is the same routine I have since I landed in this foreign country. Wake up, sleep, eat, net, mingle, cook, and work has been keeping me busy all day and you know how bitter that is? I don’t know but everything is the same, I mean nothing seems to be unusual. Unlike when I was still in the Philippines, I could visit three houses in one day and end up my night by unplanned drinking or eating out with some friends but here, it seems to be so boring with nothing to do. I am so fed up with hearing the same stuffs and dramas. I wanna do something that would make my OMACOMA life be in track again and lighten up. I wanna keep my life as if it was burning. Full of surprises, fun, and enjoyment and something that would make me relax and rest. “Same routine and same Management” is that’s all what it is. I woke up one day with no appetite for delicious foods nor do I know what to do anymore with my priorities. Do you know how awful that is? It’s as if I’m a stranger in my own life right now. This is not me. I need to wake up from this nightmare cause it’s driving me nuts. I adamantly wanted to do the same thing way back in the Philippines, my life was hellavah fun. This may sound a little bit scrutinizing but it’s true that I’m making no life here at all. I mean, I’m earning good, I’m leaving in a good but not better house and I think I’m okay with this rather than having to have not at all. I don’t even know if I do have Friends, I don’t know if I’m just sugar coating of what I’m feeling here being far away from home. It seems to be so unreal to me. Everything was so fast, it changed suddenly and when I look back, there’s nothing left but memories of what I had. I know I still have handful of friends to go back to at home but I mean, it will never be the same. A lot of changes happened in a short span of time. Some left, some resigned, some got married, and some disappeared. I wonder what is going out there. I missed my life badly, my unplanned activities which turned out to be bombastic.
I will give myself more time to adjust, more time to explore, more acquaintances, more socialization, and more life I should say. Maybe, I just lack the drive to get on track again. So, I better have a self-check again. Hahaha. When will I ever laugh really well again? I think if there’s something that is so funny. Hahays! You just don’t know how I badly missed PhilippinesL
In-sha-allah! I will pass this stage and if that happens, I’m going to make life like a roller coaster again.
Salute!
eric
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